Ever Clear - Single

Lately I've been coping through recovery

Promise I'm not doping to recover me

[Instrumental Intro]

[Verse]

It was supposed to be clear but it wasn't

Why can't life ever be fucking clear?

Did I ignore red flags? Disobey intuition?

I breathe you in and see myself disappear

Stuck bouncing back and forth between

Being scared and ignoring sounds I should've seen

Because you could still be that clarity for me (I hope)

This time I'm for real, I'm loving me right then dope (so I cope)

[Chorus]

Since I first did you and got real fuckin high

Cleared out space to take you in my addict mind

Trip over a suicidal dose of hope filled fantasy

Abandoned reason just to find a reason to abandon me

If we have no use using in future tense

There's no use in the present using so intense

Find addiction most alive when I'm lost in my head

Losing to sobriety, wish I'd O.D. to find me dead

Lost when sober in my head

Worth the overdose to be high

Rather be O.D.'d and die

Than to live sober instead

[Bridge]

It should've never been so easy to sleep on you.

Turns out things really weren't ever clear

I take the hit, the hit takes me down on use

Luck clearly stepped up the drug abuse in here

[Chorus]

Since I first did you and got real fuckin high

Cleared out space to take you in my addict mind

Trip over a suicidal dose of dope fueled sobriety

Abandoned reason just to find a reason to abandon me

If we have no use using in future tense

There's no use in the present using so intense

My addiction comes alive lost in my head

Losing to sobriety wish I could just O.D. instead

[Outro]

Lately I've been coping through recovery

Promise I'm not doping to recover me

I've been doping through recovery

Way past hoping to recover me

(I've been doping through recovery

Way past hoping to recover me)